Wednesday, October 21, 2009

My Fathers' love

God gave me an amazing earthly Father and in him an amazing friend. My Dad would do anything for me. If I got burnt he would get me help. If I fell he would pick me up and brush me off. If I needed to laugh he would make my toys talk. If I needed a hug he would hug me. He taught me how to drive. He sat up with me during lambing season. We even wrote speeches together and made things in his shop for school. My Dad and I are still very close. He walked me down the aisle at my wedding and gave me away, but he never stopped being my Daddy. We have cried together, laughed together and had some pretty good fights, but through this I know we loved each other and always will.

I have been reading a lot of books about God's love for us. I went to woman's retreat this last weekend and we were taught on the love of our Father God. God's love is like my Dad's. It never ends no matter what I do or how far away from him I am.

I used to "hide" in my Dad's jackets. I would slowly over time start wearing his old jacket when he got a new one. He got one every year through work. This was a joke in my family, but a big deal in my life. Now I was a very small kid so me wearing the jacket of my 6' 2 1/2" Dad looked funny. I knew people made fun of my choice in jackets, but I was so scared to take it off. Having his jacket on me was like having him sitting in the school with his arms wrapped around me. Wearing his coat made me "invisible" and made it so the pain was less when the other kids would laugh at I thought. It took away from the other things they could have made fun of.

God has been working on me and healing me over the last 5 years. Two years ago the jacket came off, I actually gave it back to my Dad. I no longer have to wear my daddy's jacket because I am able to feel the arms of my father God around me just like that jacket. I didn't trade in one Dad for another, I just accepted that I am enough. I am who God made me too be. I still can feel my daddy's arms around me and I know he is only a phone call away, but I also know that my Father God is just a "call" away too.