Wednesday, November 11, 2009

A lesson in a blanket

holy experience

I know I am a day late, but I had no time yesterday to get what I was thinking down. I FINISHED. In September my Church went on a fast and prayer for 21 days. For medical reasons I am unable to do a traditional fast of food, so I decided to fast Facebook. Then for some reason I just stopped playing computer games at the same time. Now apparently I used to play computer games a lot because I found that I had nothing to do in my free time. Hmm what to do?

A few months ago I was reunited with a friend I had lost touch with. It turns out she love to make things. If she sees a craft she will try to make it and usually she succeeds. We chat a lot on line and she is always showing me things that she has made or is making. We are talking crochet, knitting, you name it. I was fascinated by this. I wanted to make things too. I went out and got a bunch on yarn, crochet hooks and a book. I started one night trying to make a chain. Now I am a perfectionist and if I start something and it doesn't look right I drive myself crazy until it does. I tried and tried to get a chain I liked and couldn't. I then went online and started to see if I could find something easy to get going with. I was not going to fail at this, my husband had just let me spend the money to start my "new hobby". I wasn't going to let this hobby go onto the shelf with the rest of my failures. I ran into some videos on You Tube about making granny squares and I set out to start. I sat with my yarn and my hook with that video for two evenings. i struggled and I struggled. Why was she getting a square and I was getting a circle? Then I figured it out and was on my way. I got my first square made and showed it to my friend, she loved it. I then made another and another until I had 30. By this time I had decided to make a blanket for me. Now I usually would have made this big of a project for someone else because I have always felt non important. If you do something nice you need to do it for someone else. For some reason I chose to do it for ME. There are 99 squares in my beautiful blanket. I cried over things while making it. I prayed over things happening in my life and in my friends lives. I bought the Bible on MP3 and I listen to it as I crochet (can't do that very well while playing games on the computer). I struggled with it, but I accomplished something, and I did it for me.

I am worth it! I do matter! Now that I know I can do this amazing thing I am going to start sharing my gift. My next project is going to be another blanket for my neighbor. She is a wonderful person who has adopted me at a daughter and that loves my little family dearly. She fell in love with my blanket, so I will be giving her one too.

I have yet to go back to the computer games. I have played one or two since the fast ended, but they don't consume me like they used to. Now my mind is being stretched. Thank you Lord for caring about me enough to open my eyes and to teach me a new talent. My I bless others with this gift.


Steph said...

Seeing if I fixed the problem and if it will post my comment

Anonymous said...

Wow, what a beautiful blanket, and a beautiful story. You are worth it!!! Way to go.