Psalms 139

Sometimes I look around and realize that life is not how I planned it.  People I was always close to are gone, or at least not a part of my daily life.  Friends come and go-friends that you always thought you would be close to.  You move from one house, school, Church to another.  Life changes just like the sand after the waves hit it.  It is something that you know will happen, but are you ready for it.  Have you ever stood on the sand as the wave is going back out to sea and felt it slowly coming out from under your feet.  You can try to dig your toes in deeper or let it go and see where it takes you.  There is only one constant in my life that has never changed and has been there since my conception and that is God. 

Psalm 139:1-18 (New Living Translation)

Psalm 139

For the choir director: A psalm of David.

¹ O Lord, you have examined my heart
      and know everything about me.
² You know when I sit down or stand up.
      You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
³ You see me when I travel
      and when I rest at home.
      You know everything I do.
⁴ You know what I am going to say
      even before I say it, Lord.
⁵ You go before me and follow me.
      You place your hand of blessing on my head.
⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
      too great for me to understand!

⁷ I can never escape from your Spirit!
      I can never get away from your presence!
⁸ If I go up to heaven, you are there;
      if I go down to the grave,^[a] you are there.
⁹ If I ride the wings of the morning,
      if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
      and your strength will support me.
¹¹ I could ask the darkness to hide me
      and the light around me to become night—
¹² but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
   To you the night shines as bright as day.
      Darkness and light are the same to you.

¹³ You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
      and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
      Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
¹⁵ You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
      as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
¹⁶ You saw me before I was born.
      Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
   Every moment was laid out
      before a single day had passed.

¹⁷ How precious are your thoughts about me,^[b] O God.
      They cannot be numbered!
¹⁸ I can’t even count them;
      they outnumber the grains of sand!
   And when I wake up,
      you are still with me!

I find comfort in this knowledge and am very thankful.  Life isn’t the way I thought it would be and that is ok because His ways are perfect.  I am who He made and I will do what He says I should do.