I have been in an organizing mode this last week. My Thursday, Friday and Saturday were filled with it. It was almost like I felt if I didn’t get it done my world would end. After having attacked most of my house I still had a feeling of “something is still out of order”. So I went after my priorities and schedule. Saturday my husband and I went to bed on time and I set my alarm for 2 hours before I had to leave my house. Then I crossed the biggest hurdle and got up when the alarm when off! This gave me time to turn on the worship music, get dressed and ready, EAT (this is usually a missed event for me on Sunday) and then I had time to sit and relax. For the first time in months I was able to get into the van on time (on a Sunday)with everything I needed. It is amazing what a little extra time did for me yesterday. My head was clear and I was able to focus.
So in keeping with this change I decided last night to end my evening differently. We went to bed on time again, then instead of watching tv to go to sleep I read a book. I chose a book that would actually change my life instead of a fun book and read until I hit a point that I wanted to think over.
I have been worrying and my anxiety level has been high lately. I was reading “Praying through the Scriptures” by Judson Cornwall. The part that stopped me was
“Anxiety is destructive. It saps energy, restricts our thinking, limits our joy and hinders our relationship with God.” The Scripture reference he then put was 1 Peter 5:6-7 “Humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting ALL your care upon Him, for he cares for you.”
I chose last night to stop shortly after reading that, turn out my light and pray that scripture out loud. My prayers lately have been crying out to God and telling him what is needed to fix my problems and “demanding” that he solve it the way I see fit. This is not God’s way. We are to give up our problems and struggles to him and let him come back with the solution. He is our Father and desires to be the one to take care of us. I went to sleep with this scripture still going through my mind and it actually was through out my dreams and I woke up with the words still coming out of my mouth in a prayer. My worries and problems seam so small today. They are still there, but I know that my Father God is already taking care of things. I His time the answers will come and the promises He made fulfilled.
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- watching the vegetable plants that were planted months ago produce food
- visiting with my husband as we took a walk
- My job and his that provide for our basic needs
- My son wanting to cuddle with me as I was working on a blanket
- us laughing as we were trying to figure out how to keep said blanket covering us as I worked on the rows
- That God heard my lonely cry and 2 years ago sent me the perfect friend who now calls me her best friend and I call her mine
- Her spending the afternoon with me on my loneliest day of the week(Jason works Sundays right now and they are very lonely for me) then making pizza with best friend and laughing over silly things
- finding a treasure of a book I didn’t know I owned and God speaking life changing lessons to me through the words
- my husbands amazing family who love me as if I have always belonged
- my Church family that missed me after a 2 week absence
- The gate in my front yard, paint in the playroom, a solution to the shower door issue and the finishing touches that my husband decided to surprise me with
- my neighbor who calls my kids her grandkids and includes them in her school clothes shopping list and Christmas list
- Tea dates with this neighbor
- The beautiful bright moon that we have been blessed with this last week. It is so beautiful !